9th January 2011

Its Sunday morning.. made breakfast for everyone then later on all of us start working on cleaning the house. Isaac took his nap around 1230pm and woke up around 4pm then we detour to take mum for her hair cut. Nothing special happened on this day but I noticed mum and I hardly communicate anymore its just like you ask I answer. That's it

8th January 2011

Its been close to a week that I did not update the blog. On the 8th January 2011, mum has returned from Perth to KL. The excitement wasn't there in my heart I just wished that mum could stay on in Perth and do not return. Why? I think its because due to an incident happened back in December 2010 where both of us had an arguement over some $$ problem. By then upon mum's returned I just felt that both of us was drawn apart and not as close as before. It was a tiring day.. but the entire day just ended like that we nothing special to talk about..

Passing of my beloved dad

Can't believe dad has gone for close to 9 months. Its been hard to let go and believe that you had left us. It only seems like yesterday and I missed you dearly. Its not easy to moved on although we know that we must go on with our lives without your presence. Everytime I flip thru the photo albums it made me so upset and I wished that you were still here. I missed the time we used to spend together, missed your joke, your sharings on your past as an ex-armforcer. Looking back all these had became my most precious memory. Daddy.... I hope that you are in a better place now and is free from pain. Being up in heaven with God. Happily smiling and watching over us up in heaven.

3rd January 2011

Can't believe another year passed and we are in to another chapter of life. It's the first day of work in January 2011, it suppose to be exciting but stepping into the office was just a daily routine nothing seems special just normal and quiet as usual. 1st questione popped up from my msn messenger by one of my colleague Sharon was how did you celebrated your new year?? Haha what a good question ... My new year eve was nothing special, we stayed home and did some simple cooking - fried squid, Pak choi with clams, soup and steamed chicken mince. Then on Saturday new year day itself we do some house chores. Well to me it's just a weekend and nothing special but we had fun playing with Isaac. Comes Sunday... Still the same we watch tele with Isaac, play with him then he took his nap. But can tell that deep down in me I miss Ethan. I bet Isaac miss his brother too! Isaac slept early on Sunday night @ 7pm. He is totally exhausted and sick too - running nose. And today 3rd January he started coughing badly. Both Liang and I were in bad mood. I was scolded by mum - she really think that I'm so useless and to be frank I think am useless and a burden to everyone too. But what can I do to earn more money to make her feel happy? I often questioned myself. Am I a money generator? When I can help u told me is my responsible but when I can't you will say thT I'm hopeless. Why is this happening around my mum and I? It's a bad day I can just feel that I'm not a lucky person as my lucky star does not be with me anymore where it used to be